zen

I wish I don’t have t ask for the 1.2k back from my parents. I hate it when money issues turn the smiles into frowns. I hate the fact tt I still can’t afford a t let my parents lead a life w/o getting vexed about money.

I am tired beyond words.

yays!

I HAVE FOUND THER PERFECT PLACE FOR MY 21ST BIRTHDAY PARTY!

 

 

anyways i really really need to stop the habit of having supper. *stuff a fishball into mouth

genuine

“It’s important that you are happy with your self and what you are accomplishing in your own individual life, and if you do that, then it will most likely find you, and it will most likely be a more genuine type of love rather then the bullshit that most of our population is involved in.

Like relying on another person to make you happy, or letting someone else rely on you to make them happy.

Times change and minds rearrange….

It’s ok to love someone for years and then stop.

It’s ok to not want to love anybody for periods of time.

It’s ok to love more then one person.

It’s ok because it’s life.

Just make sure you love what your doing with yourself, and you’ll be dandy.

And if you don’t, then I suggest you remedy that today, not tomorrow.”

 

i was. it was genuine. then i wasnt anymore and lost myself in the process. and it was all bullshit afterwhich.

option 2 now.

and it’ll be genuine again and im gunna try my best t keep the bullshit away.

i guess time travellers wife at this point of time made me realise tons of things.

like how someone who truly love her special someone enabled her to tolerate all the waiting. imagine the agony. i guess my love isnt tt great. but then again. henry is able to make things worth it. it was what he did to make things tolerable. even though having t time travel all the time is not a choice and he is not enjoying it, he still made it a point t make things better despite being drained himself. it takes 2 hands to clap. then again, if im henry, i would have been angry that she is not understanding and dont understand the shit i have t go through when all i want was comfort and concern after all the travelling.

ive tried on both roles and i didn do it the way they have done. tried to but failed. i give myself 6/10. how about you?

this made me realise the rarity of that kinda love.

henry

today i was damn proud of myself. yogurt for dinner.

but alas. its 2plus am now and im just done playing spot the diff w my folks. hahahah. and im shoving food down my throat. oh no!

I AM SERIOUSLY GETTING EXTREMELY LARDY. and its not lardy at the place its supposed to be – boobies.

anyhowwww, meeting yesterday and im proud to say im the youngest and the newest in the company to get the gold card from singapore gm.

drool people drool.

anyhow yesterday dinner was a bitch feast. well at least the people deserve it for forgetting and misplacing our orders.

finally watch time travellers wife. i guess my coco’s gunna be on dvd. gah.

i did something right yesterday and im proud of myself too. i dont know if i’ll feel better but at least i know i did the right thing.

i am a fast learner and nthings gunna bring me down. i have all the support i need from my loved ones and i think theres nthing i cant deal w. i will love the next one better. i know i can. i did the 2nd time better than the 1st at least.

work is good for me and him. we re both flying high. i guess time is not right. we both cant give each of us what we wanted. career driven. we both need supporting roles in our lives at this point of life. well well, fly high n run wild. tts whats life is all about. like what my mum told me. let nature take its course. what will be, will be.

things are finally back on track. and im glad we had a proper closure. at least on my side.

im happy.

boredom

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freaking fun.

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1. joel and jaslyn are forced to roleplay out a verbal couple fight. Who gets to play the wife?

- joel plays both roles. jas just will just be too dumfounded t say anything.

2. Have you ever had lunch together with sj?

- no way, eating is a sin

3. Hot cx on shihui action – Yes/No?

- no way! i’ll like to see that though. its be more hilarious than hot

4. If shumei played in a movie, what kind of character would they play?

- mickey mouse. or some bimbo w big tits.

5. In a race between you, jolene(twin) and cx, who would win?

- cx hands down. how to win npcc cadet?!

6. What’s yanting’s opinion on cheese?

- free ah? i want!

7. Who would be a better superhero sidekick between caroline and jolene(twin), and why?

- caroline! we already are a superhero team. ohmy, tts pretty corny isnt it, batman. lol

8. Does jacqueline have any pets?

- is it dead yet?

9. Who is jaslyn’s best friend?

- meijing?

10. Do you trust shihui?

- hell yes!

dont go

yesterday was pretty awesome.
despite the lack of sleep n the mad rush of work in the morning the latter was good.
met the girls to get some details down for our itinerary followed by brows session.

went home t mj with the folks then went over to sj’s for our feast.

it was really nice meeting everyone up and i went home feeling pretty good.

dreams were kinda sad, woke up feeling shitty. stayed in bed to escape and had to resort to cabbing again.

work was alright but im really losing my paitience.

got a chance to prove myself at work. which also means 2 full shifts at JP. initially i was still quite happy tt i got the opportunity. but when the realisation of what the location means, im flooded with emotions. even till now. explains why im blogging. JP is infested with memories. i cant help feeling shitty. and i know the 2 days is gunna be hell for me.

i needa be stronger.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

wails.

ice jelly

today is 090909.

i feel sad.

almost but i didn.
im proud of myself.

i still miss you. whywhywhy. sigh.

bye world.

just when i thought ive seen it all

i dont freaking understand!!!!!!!!!!

omgs omgs omgs.

first its those cfp uncles and their china women, then theres the average joe who have no choice but to settle w a china woman.

now heres the thing tt really traumatized me yesterday.

I CANT BELIEVE A 23(24?)YEARS OLD, GOOD LOOKING, EDUCATED YOUNG MAN WHO SPEAKS GOOD ENGLISH LIVING ON A CHINA WOMAN!!!!!!!!! omgs and my colleague told me its not the 1st time she saw such cases. omg. how much is your dignity worth dude?

wtf seriously wtf is wrong with the male population in singapore.

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i told my mum tt life is short. i should try tanning nude in aust. hahahahha. she forbade, but not strongly against it. and her only concern was that someone took those photos and destroy my life on the net. whats the probability man. haha, i love my mum.

anyhow, im pretty sick now. just went t see the doc. an apple a day doesn really quite do the work.(i really bring an organic apple everyday to work to eat i swear)
im really overworked to the max. sigh. 4 more reports t go on my freaking off day. how not t be miserable! screams.

4 more full shifts t go. tmr is gunna be damn tiring since the shop assistant resigned. plus orderings n meeting preparation when i reach home i think im gunna sleep at 2am. fri 9am meeting plus shortage of manpower im gunna slog and work my ass off. sat n sun another hardcore weekend.
given my health now, i dont know how am i gg to make it through. i hope i dont faint. not kidding. and i seriously needa cut down on cab, need the money desperately.

wails.
feeling feverish. bye all